Reminiscing of the Past

I remember when I was a kid I always wished I could be grown up. Now all I wish  for is to have that simple life that I once had as a child.

People say as we grow so must our wisdom, our intelligence, but no one really understands the true meaning of what that is.

I used to believe that adults knew everything. I always considered them to be right in all situations. And I honestly wanted to be one of them.

Now, I am older. I am not wise, nor do I know everything. Instead what I have discovered is that as we grow, life gets harder because we have forgotten what it was to see the world in a simple colorful way.

As we go through our daily routines, we slowly start to forget what our hearts desired as children. We forget what our hope was for the future. 

I can say that when I was younger I couldn't wait to be grown up. I wanted responsibilities not knowing what that was. I wanted a career. I wanted to do it all. I wanted to take care of animals. (not the children of today kind) but actual cute animals, such as cats or crocodiles. I wanted to be an Artist, I wanted to draw and paint the world the way I used to see it. I wanted to be successful and have people come to me for answers as I once did with the adults. 

As each year passed all I saw was my dreams diminishing amongst a shadow of hope. I was slowly becoming an adult. I always did my best. I tried my hardest in all that I did. I put my heart and soul in everything I wanted to accomplish. And so towards doing all that, I have come to the realization that adults are no better than children who wish to one day become them.

As I've gone through these 22 years, I've learned many things, some good, some bad. But what it all comes down to is that only ourselves can determine where our lives will head. No adult in this world is perfect. We all have demons inside, waiting to be unleashed into the world. And whether we choose to follow those demons or gather up the courage and strength of our hearts to tackle life with all the fire that guides us, the choice is ours, and no one else can chose the life you live.

So, What will you choose?